Mission: Orbit 32

32 years on this earth and yet I somehow feel like my 12th birthday was only a couple of years ago. They say time is a thief and I couldn’t agree more with that phrase. It’s true the older you get, the more you realize we don’t have the luxury to be wasteful with it. This society makes it very easy to lose sight of that, unfortunately.

My thirties have been more about self-awareness and reflection than my twenties ever were. I’m more concerned about keeping myself grounded and surrounded with people that will add value to it than forced relationships and living deliberately. In my twenties, I lacked the maturity to establish healthy boundaries and to take accountability for my own demons. I don’t believe I could have changed anything about my twenties to gain more maturity. I think those experiences were necessary to be where I am today. I was of the thinking that you should never change as a person, and life humbled me. The fact of the matter is, change is what allows us to live abundantly. Of course there are facets of our personality that are part of our essence but whatever stands in between you choosing love, peace, truth and healing, should and can be redefined.

I hope I am a constant work in progress and that I continue to evolve as an individual. I hope to continue to learn how to talk less and listen more. I hope I continue to judge less and love more. I hope to lean in instead of react. I hope to educate instead of passively exist. I hope my faith strengthens and that I can bring others closer to God. And not through preaching but by the way I conduct myself. That I may be a vessel of His love.

God thank you for these 32 years of life. Thank you for the greatest gift of all, my little girl. Now more than ever, the stakes are high for me to be the best version of myself. I want her to be proud of being my daughter and more importantly find stability and security in me, always. May I be a person of character, unconditional love, compassion and wisdom to guide her in this world.